I need my mommy.

My mom was the most amazing person in the world. She made sure everyone was taken car of. Had the bills to pay, had everything taken care of. She knew what to do and would do it.

I'm in they preverbial rock and a hard spot.
I have to feed my kids, pay my rent, utilities, my car, my insurance and more. I have a part time job that pays 8 bucks an hour. And only part time hours. Mr. C is "looking" for a job yet only looks when I bitch at him. I am trying to get assistance but no one is helping me get the information I need. I hate asking for help anyways and of course they want to draw me asking out.

I wanna cry buckets. I'm going to wic tomorrow to try to get baby food for the K. Hmmm sometimes I just wanna run away when I get no help. Especially when I come home to a disastrous house, pissed off kids, and a husband who is playing video games instead of job hunting or doing homework.

Who wants to run away? *ooooo* pick me pick me!!!!!!

Cloth is addicting

Have you ever tried cloth diapering? If not you totally should! Cloth to me is the best possible things ever. Patterns and print. So many more. I would love to foster and adopt. I want lots of babies and cloth has helped.

If anyone has questions I'm glad to answer them.

I love my pockets. Pockets are diapers that look almost like disposables but you can stuff them with inserts as much as possible. Lol and All in ones (aio) they need no stuffing or anything like that.

Lately I've wanted to try prefolds with covers. They are the same thing as old school but instead of pins they have these awesome things called snappies.

Who wants to donate there old school prefolds that they use as burp rags.

Here have some cute fluff butt!

The days got bright and happy

I had a playdate today. My cloth meet up group. Only a few people came :( it was pretty sad but the people who came were awesome!

I got another mama started on her cloth. For the sweet baby K that she has. K is adorable little girl! She's small so she fits the newborns I had. Yay!!!! I've been in a great mood. Maybe its from the vitamins I've been taking everday to help my sleepyness.

But the days are still hard. I'm working on it. Oh good news on Mr. C finding a job! He has an interview with a security firm on Monday. Please pray hope send good vibes whatever you do his way and our way!

Going to a BBQ tomorrow with Mr. C's school buddies. I'm pretty excited.and very.nervous about meeting this group! Anyways its time for bed I hope y'all get a good nights rest. I sure hope I can! Sweet dreams.

Get togeather of the leech kind

Today is Friday, tomorrow is Saturday.

Someone tell me why I thought it was a good idea to host a playdate? I suck at this. I'm always way over stressed, over extended, and make way to much food. I need a intervention when it comes to feeding people. I am a feeder. Lol so this playdate might have two people coming yet somehow it my mind I've got all of Texas knocking on my door. I don't mind that only a few people are coming. Okay I lied I want a lot of people because I like to surround myself with greatness and well everyone has greatness in them except me (low self esteem talking don't mind me).

Anyways. I'm gonna make edible finger paint, plan on swimming and jamming out. My thought process has made this a 12 hour event. I wanna make food and homemade lemonade. Maybe some Sun tea or sweet tea with molasis. I'm way in over my head.

Life boat anyone? Dingy maybe....suck it up and let your balls shine through Tasha.

Biological clock....tick tick tick

I have two darling girls, you all know this. B who is 3 almost 4 and K who is 7 months. I love them to death. I went through the worst possible pregnancies. I literally threw up at least once a day....once a day I guess isn't bad it was the every hour vomitting that got old. I learned through my pregnancies what food tastes the same coming up as it went down (Snapple!). So add that plus kidney problems to the thousandth degree I was advised to not have anymore kids because it could potentially put me into kidney failure. Kidney failure is BAD. Let's not do that. So down the line I got my tubes tied. No more babies for me....but guess what. I want more. I want more and more babies. I love kids. I love children. I wanna foster since I can't have anymore with maybe adopting a baby boy down the line. I think it would be kinda like paying it forward. My husband was actually adopted by a great family....so adopting would be great. Maybe even an older boy. But to get there I gotta push hubby to get a job, finish school get life back on track. So who wants to loan me their babies? Lol I promise ill be good with them!

Dun dun dun.....

The day has been boring. Got up, got kids dressed and ready. Watched my little ponies, strawberry shortcake, and power rangers ninja storm. Then got McDonalds (yeah I know so unhealthy but I got nothing at the house and no cash). Went to work at one. Got off at 7. Came home got pizza and its now 9:45pm (Arizona time) and all I wanna do is sleep....man sleep sounds amazing. My knee hurts my kidneys have been hurting. Ugh hurt hurt hurt.:...and I'm Bitching and Bitching lol. Well it is my blog ya know lol. Back to the grind tomorrow. I'm hoping to get all the laundry done tomorrow so I don't gotta go in on wendsday....hmmmmmm maybe I should make pie.

Warning graphic.

So since Facebook won't let me post some of my adorable picture I will now. Ones of K being funny and decided it was better to play with moms nipples vs eating and well more!